YOU DON'T!
I am sick and tired of people telling me that they "understand what I am going through". You don't, and never will, unless you get the unfortunate opportunity to live this life. Quit pitying me, quit telling me it will be okay, quit feeling sorry for me! You aren't helping. Not even a little bit.
I don't want to hear that I knew what I was getting myself in to. I know.
I don't want to be told to stop crying about it. When your husband leaves you for 7 months, you're allowed to cry!
I am tired of being invited places because "I should really get out of the house". Invite me because you want me to be there!
This weekend was the hardest yet. Memorial Day weekend...
Every news story is military, every Facebook post is military, everyone being all mushy gushy over their Marine. And what am I doing? Sitting in my bed wanting to die. Everything hurts. Especially my heart. You will never understand what it feels like to go to bed alone every night, you will never understand what it feels like to wake up alone every morning, you will never understand the sadness that overwhelms your every move because the person you love more than anything in the world is farther from you than you could ever imagine...My heart is broken and there isn't enough duct tape in the world to mend the pieces.
I hate this, and NO, you don't understand!
I know what you're saying, and if that was the case I wouldn't have made such a huff about it. But I am actually writing about a few specific people, who really do deserve this rant. I just happened to generalize it instead of naming them specifically.
ReplyDeleteI know I have people that care about me and what I am going through. Which is why they are my close friends, people who I turn to when I am having a rough time.
But these others seem more focused on their own lives than listening to anything I say. So to those people, this was for you.
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Love you, Cousin!