With everything I have going on, I just couldn't seem to keep myself in a straight line!! I was being pulled in a hundred different directions and letting myself get wayyyy too overwhelmed!
I think I am finally getting back to my usual self. I started going tanning again, and got back in the gym (FINALLY!) Sometimes you have to hit the bottom to be able to reach the top. I was so focused on all of the negative that was going on that I had completely forgotten about all the positive things I have in my life.
I have a WONDERFUL family! We may get on each other's nerves sometimes but I wouldn't trade a single one of them for anything in the world!! The loss of my Grandad really brought me down. It was the first time I had to experience anything like that before...I am just trying to keep telling myself that he lived a very long and happy life. He touched so many people's lives. I had 22 years of his love and support!! I am SO lucky!
I have THE BEST husband anyone could ask for! Yes, we have our ups and downs...Who doesn't?? That doesn't mean we don't love each other, and it doesn't mean we aren't perfectly suited for each other! Some days we just have to work a little harder at our relationship. He holds half of my heart...and I hold half of his! We both strive to make the other happy. Getting to wake up next to him every morning is such an amazing gift! <3
I have GREAT friends!! I am so thankful to have these awesome people in my life! They are always there for me no matter what! Even if that means driving to the beach at 1am on a school night, listening to me cry over a bottle of wine, or just being by my side when things get rough...To you, I am forever in your debt!
So, I have some bad days...They don't compare to the good ones <3
With this deployment quickly approaching, I am trying to soak in as much love and support as possible...I am going to need it! I may complain, I may cry, I may get angry...but I support my husband ONE HUNDRED PERCENT!! I am here no matter what...I always will be!
Thank you to everyone who has been behind me in all of this...without you I am nothing. I love you always and forever!
