I promised myself I would document my "weight loss journey" and I guess part of that journey will be let downs...
I have been going at this for 2 whole weeks now. Two weeks of vitamins, two weeks of eating right, and two weeks of working out. Up until last night I felt great! I felt like I had more energy! I was actually excited to get on the elliptical every day. I felt a change that I haven't felt in a very long time. Until last night...I was happy with how things were going...
Well, last night I had my husband take my measurements. I was convinced that even though I didn't really SEE a difference in my body yet, the numbers would prove me wrong. Unfortunately that wasn't the case. While comparing numbers, I felt every ounce of motivation leave my body. One swift blow to the face...My measurements were exactly the same...
HOW COULD THAT BE?!?!
Two weeks of busting my ass and not a single thing to show for it!! Even just typing those words brings me to tears...
Mentally I am back to square one. And I guess technically, physically, I never left square one...
Nick did the measurements both times. I made no change. I WAS feeling better, but not any more. Now I have absolutely NO motivation to keep going. Working out and exercising has never been easy for me. I just needed something to show me that I was actually making a positive change. Even just an inch would have made me happy. I wasn't expecting to wake up looking like a Victoria's Secret model after a day! I'm still at it. I have a physical on Monday and I have to talk to them about my thyroid. When I was pregnant I had Hypothyroidism. A side effect is actually gaining weight/obesity. So I am wondering if that could be part of the reason I haven't been able to lose even my original baby weight. I was taking meds to help even out my thyroid level but haven;t been back in for an update. Hopefully I can talk to my dr and get some things worked out :)
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