Today I had a conversation with my husband and my dad about my future. Where do I want to be in a year? In five years? Ten??? Definitely not sitting at home on my ass watching TV and eating bon-bons...definitely not chasing around a dozen rug-rats with barely enough money to feed them all...So where do I want to be? What do I want to do?
For the longest time (Pretty much for a long as I can remember) I have wanted to be a neonatal nurse. Babies are my life!! Being a part of bringing them into this life and caring for them in their first few days would be AMAZING to say the least. As a kid, I had hundreds of baby dolls. As a teen, I had two younger sisters that I was a part of raising. But now, as an adult, the sunshine and rainbows of the job aren't quite as clear to me. Now I am realizing the downside too. What happens if a baby doesn't survive? What if I can't help?? There is no way I would be able to take the emotion out of my job. The first time I lost a child, I would lose myself too. No matter how much I try to convince myself that the good would out-weigh the bad, I still don't believe I can do it anymore...
So now what??
Well, I have talked a lot about being a kindergarten teacher. (Maybe even 1st-3rd) I would still be a part of those children's lives! I would still help mold!! Their future would still be in my hands but not quite like the way it would be in a nursing career. This sounds pretty much perfect for me! Getting to spend everyday with young kids, having summers and holidays off AND the pay isn't too bad either.
First things first...EDUCATION!!!! This is where I start to lose sight of things...I love school and not to sound cocky, but I am pretty smart too! However, paying for the schooling is going to kill me!! Why does applying for financial aid have to SUCK so badly?? I don't have any money, and I don't make any money...that should mean I can GET some money...But, noooooooo.....I guess I just have to take things one step at a time.
I must say, this is probably the best decision I have made thus far in my life. (Besides marrying my hubby ;p ) I am just praying that everything goes the way I am hoping it will and I will be one happy camper! YAY
