I deserve the world!

So why is everything falling to pieces!?!?

I feel like I am drowning. I can't breathe. For every one step forward, I'm forced 8 steps back. I have never felt so lost and out of control in my whole life. Why is this happening to me?! I used to have things so figured out! I used to know where I was going. I used to be HAPPY!

Where is that happiness now? I haven't felt it in quite some time...

There is too much on my plate and I'm too full to eat...School, a job, marriage, a wedding, deployment...I want a day off from life. Can I do that? Can I just take a break for one day?! Just a day to relax, take a breather, figure out WHAT THE HELL I'M DOING!!!!

I've fallen into a hole and I don't know when it happened. I just keep falling down...down...There's nobody there to catch me and eventually I am going to hit the ground, hard!

I have no help, no support. When is it going to be MY turn? When am I going to get what I want? What I NEED? Why can't anything go the way I want it? Why can't I get my head above the water?? WHY ISN'T ANYBODY HERE FOR ME???

I deserve so much better than this...I deserve the WORLD!

I am tired of the anxiety. I am tired of the depression. I am tired of the pain...