GOOD NEWS!

As you all know, I had a meeting with the school counselor yesterday and I was a little skeptical. I didn't think I was going to be able to attend that school because they don't have a bachelor program but I went to the meeting anyways in hopes they could at least steer me in the right direction.

Turns out, I don't have to go ANYWHERE!! (Well, for another 2 years, anyways.) I can spend the first 2 years at this community college taking care of my general education classes for a lot less money and then transfer to a Cal State and only spend 2 more years there to get my bachelor's degree!!! So, regardless, this BA will only take me 4 years, like it should!

Can I get a "WOOOO HOOOOO" ????!!!!

I LOVE getting good news!

As of August 2011, I will be a college student (Again)! I can't wait. I already have my first semester of classes all planned out. Now, I just need to decide where I will transfer to...San Marcos? Fullerton? San Bernardino???? I just have to take a look at them all and see which one will be able to carry on my Major...either Child development or Liberal Studies...DECISIONS DECISIONS!!!

I can't even think about it right now...I like the view from Cloud 9!

I could get used to this!

I am meeting with the counselor today to talk about school. Hopefully, they will be able to lay out the next four years for me. And, HOPEFULLY, it won't cost a ba-jillion dollars!!! School is so important right now. I really need to take care of myself for the future! I am looking to get a BA, possibly in sociology or psychology, and then get my teaching credential.

A little inspiration to start my day...

Yea, I could get used to this! I just love him to the moon!!

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Yesterday went well....it was a group interview, which I have never done before. I feel like it went well though :) I won't hear back from them for 2 weeks to find out if I get a second, one on one, interview. I am so excited! I really hope to hear from them!

aannnddddddd

HAPPY ST. PATRICK'S DAY!!!!! (Maybe the luck of the Irish will rub off on me today)

My interview...YIKES

Today is my interview. Although, this isn't a job I plan to keep for very long, I need something that will keep me busy while Nick is away. The income doesn't hurt either ;)

I was a little nervous when I woke up...It has been a little while since I have had to interview for anything!

That was until I got this...

I pretty much have the greatest husband on the face of this Earth!!! I don't know what I would do without him <3



Now, excuse me while I go kick this interview's a$$!!!

Goin' to the chapel and...

...we're gonna get RE-married!

I know it sounds silly to have a wedding after you're already married and even more silly to have a vow renewal ceremony after only 2 years of marriage...But we are not really your average couple!

I was finally able to get Nick to hammer out the details of this ceremony with me last night! I was under the impression we would have more of just a reception because of us already being married. He was not...
His comment was "If there's no wedding, the reception is pointless....we might as well just throw a huge-ass party!"

POINT TAKEN

So, we will instead, have more of a mock ceremony (A horse and pony show for everyone we jipped the first time around) and then have the reception. Just like an actual wedding...minus the legality of it! :)

Here comes the fun part...planning this whole thing while he's away! Yea, I'm going to need help!! The nice thing is that we are both very simple people...I don't need the major dress (As long as the one I DO wear is white and still girly and elegant without being a million dollars) and we don't really need crazy decorations everywhere...

Here is the start of our list:

Picking the date...sometime in January
Picking the place to have it
Getting everyone here to enjoy it!!
Food
Alcohol
Chairs/Tables/Linens
Centerpieces/Other decor
Potential DJ
Dress/suit
Agreeing on a wedding party/attire for them
Aaannnndddd the cake...I hate cake, soooo something we can get to look like a cake without actually being a cake ;p


That's pretty much it for now. The rest will all fall into place as the day gets closer. I AM SO EXCITED!! I have wanted this for so long :D

Today is better...

Today is a better day. Being home with my hubby and the dog makes it so much easier! I am able to fall back into a regular routine to help clear my mind.

I just miss him so much! I had a dream about him last night. I was at their house and as I was leaving he gave me a big hug and kiss and wished me luck for my interview! My job interview that I just found out about yesterday!! He was there for me, letting me know that he knew and was proud of me. That he was going to be there to make sure everything goes well. Even though it was hard seeing him in my dream, it was SO nice knowing that he hasn't gone away. He will always be there for me and my family...like he always has been! I love you and miss you so much, Grandad!! <3 <3


This upcoming week is going to be crazy! I guess I need that right now, though.

Today I am going to the school to take an assessment test. This will determine what level of classes I will be taking. When I was in school a long time ago, I was placed really high. (Yea, Imma smarty :p) But now, I am worried that it has been so long, that I will be placed super low!! I am just hoping that through everything I've done, my brain has retained at least SOME of the information I need! Wish me luck!!

On Saturday, me and the Mister are spending a day together, going to the Rod Run and the Speedway! It is going to be so much fun!! Fun that I could really use right now! I love getting to spend time with him :)

I have a job interview early in the week...Crossing my fingers this comes through for me! This isn't something permanent, by any means. Just something to keep me busy during this deployment.

Then, later in the week, I have an appointment with the school counselor to map out the next 4 years of my life! I am really hoping this school can get me where I need to be! Otherwise, I have to keep looking. The nice thing is, the semester doesn't start until August, so I have plenty of time to get everything sorted out! I would just like to have everything taken care of before Nick leaves so that he is here to help me if I need it!

I am super excited that this is all playing out the way I want it to!


***On a COMPLETELY different topic***
I have been trying to talk to Nick about planning our wedding ceremony while he is away! I tried to do it last time he was gone, but was totally overwhelmed and decided to cancel. I am starting to realize that if I don't do it now, we will never have one! This is something VERY important to me!! Every girl dreams of having the perfect wedding...and even though we are already married, I would still love to have a ceremony for all of our friends and family. More of a celebration of our marriage, than and actual wedding...It is going to take a lot of work, though! AND I need to get my hubby on board with it again...eek...

My angel in heaven

Today, March 8th 2011, at 11:51am, Heaven received another angel...MY angel! My Grandad has passed away. I didn't expect this, not yet anyway. I wasn't ready...I'm still not ready! So many tears...

This was his time...there is no more suffering...

No matter how many times I say it, it still doesn't seem real. But this was no way for him to live...He knew, as well as I did, that there was a better place for him. God has made room and taken one of the greatest men I have ever known! He will continue to look down upon us and continue to take care of us. He will always be my Grandad...my piano playing Angel on Earth.

I love you with all of my heart, Grandad! xoxoxo
Love, (Your favorite grandaughter) Ashleigh


On  a lighter note...

Today, March 8th 2011, I took a shot with my grandma!!! This will now be a day to remember for TWO reasons!

I just love this family more than anything in the world!!

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

Want VS Need

I find myself saying "I want" waayyyy more than I say "I need". Which, I guess, could be a good thing. Maybe I have most of the things I NEED already...Maybe some of the things I want are some of the things I need too... This list should help me figure it out!

WANTS!

I want to go back to school.
I want to get another (Hopefully, good paying) job.
I want to go on a nice vacation with my hubby.
I want another pet.
I want to have children.
I want to buy a house.
I want to learn photography.
I want to get another tattoo.
I want to get my lip pierced.
I want to run a marathon...or at least try.
I want a backyard.
I want to travel.
I want to live in another state and not be terrified to actually move.
I want to teach.
I want to have a REAL wedding.
I want to wake up everyday and be proud of where I am!


NEEDS!

I need to go back to school.
I need another job.
I need to buy a house.
I need to get out of California and experience life!
I need to have children. (Yes, need.)
I need to get out of my comfort zone.
I need to find what makes me happy.
I NEED to wake up everyday and be proud of where I am!


Alright, alright...So, a lot of my wants are quite superficial. But that's what makes them "Wants", right? I am allowed to have things I want but don't necessarily need. Plus, some of my wants are also things that I feel like I need too...So, I guess I have things a little more figured out than I thought.
Sometimes, I just feel like there is a war inside myself. Each side has the right to stand up and fight, I just can't decide which side I want to be on. See, there's that "want" again...Should it be which side I "need" to be on??
This is where I get stuck...This is where I decide to sit idly by and watch both sides kill each other...This is what leaves me with nothing...